A lot has happened since I last said anything here. I'd started this blog when I began my Architecture course 5 years ago. Lo and Behold, I'm almost an Architect now. Well, a few months more and it'll be official, meaning the degree will say it. I knew it approximately one and a half years ago in my heart.
Anyway, past few months have been quite eventful, there's change everywhere around me, inside and outside. Since I started working out at the gym, its like I've had a new lease on life. It makes me feel absolutely wonderful, outside and more importantly inside. I feel powerful, an individual who has the power to change her life.
All the work that happened last year was a positive outcome of this change. More importantly, the change in state of mind. My association with the people around me has reached another level of intimacy, it feels like my life was dormant up until this point and all I was doing was chasing dead ends but now there's this thing, feels like life has burst into my head and it's all so very real and so very beautiful.
The thesis was like a force feeding off me and at times I was feeding of its force. My work, my guide's faith and the will of the project itself led to some very convincing life-altering revelations about what kind of Architect I want to be. The marks were never my concern. All the learning definitely was, and I'm so very satisfied with all my take-aways. Some revelations about myself were alarming but as somebody very wise said to me, "Your personality is impermanent." Which means, there's always room to change, to change yourself and more importantly to change your mind.
I will probably upload some of my favorite stuff from the thesis research. I wish I could keep telling everyone I meet about it and never stop talking, just go on and on and let more ideas be born out of the ones in my head, but the constraints of time and lack of ones to pay attention or understand cut short such mad dreams.
And currently, the internship has begun and I've met such amazing people that I knew of but never really got to know. I'm very thankful for such interactions. I've suddenly started believing in intuition, when I meet people I just know when there's some kind of connection and sometimes that connection remains dormant until the time is right and takes full power when the time for it comes. I've noticed this with a couple of people who take center-stage much after I've met them and felt like the connect.
Also, my teaching at Make a Difference has made me fall in love with the privilege of opening minds and showing them possibilities. The transition between student to teacher and teacher to student was omnipresent for the past few years. Now, I'm taking up an opportunity to be a Teaching Assistant for Second Year students in my college. These were the same kids that we'd guided through the Introductory workshop last year, they are full of energy, excitement and eagerness to do. I thoroughly enjoyed the workshop last year and this year with them promises to be wonderful.
So life's a bunch of concentric spirals and I think the smallest one is in the process of being completed. The travels and travails are in the background while feelings and experiences take the spot light which is the only place where my real awareness lies.
So leaving here for now, emptying half my heart,
predicting the end, at the point of start.
Love.
PS: Read: Why Men Won't Listen and Women Can't Read Maps, Barbara and Allan Pease.
Fun read, albeit slightly sexist but read with more than a pinch of salt.
Listen: Into the Dust, Mazzy Star. Perfect rainy day song.
Anyway, past few months have been quite eventful, there's change everywhere around me, inside and outside. Since I started working out at the gym, its like I've had a new lease on life. It makes me feel absolutely wonderful, outside and more importantly inside. I feel powerful, an individual who has the power to change her life.
All the work that happened last year was a positive outcome of this change. More importantly, the change in state of mind. My association with the people around me has reached another level of intimacy, it feels like my life was dormant up until this point and all I was doing was chasing dead ends but now there's this thing, feels like life has burst into my head and it's all so very real and so very beautiful.
The thesis was like a force feeding off me and at times I was feeding of its force. My work, my guide's faith and the will of the project itself led to some very convincing life-altering revelations about what kind of Architect I want to be. The marks were never my concern. All the learning definitely was, and I'm so very satisfied with all my take-aways. Some revelations about myself were alarming but as somebody very wise said to me, "Your personality is impermanent." Which means, there's always room to change, to change yourself and more importantly to change your mind.
I will probably upload some of my favorite stuff from the thesis research. I wish I could keep telling everyone I meet about it and never stop talking, just go on and on and let more ideas be born out of the ones in my head, but the constraints of time and lack of ones to pay attention or understand cut short such mad dreams.
And currently, the internship has begun and I've met such amazing people that I knew of but never really got to know. I'm very thankful for such interactions. I've suddenly started believing in intuition, when I meet people I just know when there's some kind of connection and sometimes that connection remains dormant until the time is right and takes full power when the time for it comes. I've noticed this with a couple of people who take center-stage much after I've met them and felt like the connect.
Also, my teaching at Make a Difference has made me fall in love with the privilege of opening minds and showing them possibilities. The transition between student to teacher and teacher to student was omnipresent for the past few years. Now, I'm taking up an opportunity to be a Teaching Assistant for Second Year students in my college. These were the same kids that we'd guided through the Introductory workshop last year, they are full of energy, excitement and eagerness to do. I thoroughly enjoyed the workshop last year and this year with them promises to be wonderful.
So life's a bunch of concentric spirals and I think the smallest one is in the process of being completed. The travels and travails are in the background while feelings and experiences take the spot light which is the only place where my real awareness lies.
So leaving here for now, emptying half my heart,
predicting the end, at the point of start.
Love.
PS: Read: Why Men Won't Listen and Women Can't Read Maps, Barbara and Allan Pease.
Fun read, albeit slightly sexist but read with more than a pinch of salt.
Listen: Into the Dust, Mazzy Star. Perfect rainy day song.
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| Some of the thesis work, range of feelings and spaces that might inspire the same. |
